May 2012 Mommy Giveaways

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MrsMartinez's Birthday Blowout Giveaway Year 2!

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Up For Make-up Beauty Bag Giveaway!!!

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Firmoo Summer Shades International Giveaway

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Everyday Doll x Eazy Fashion Korean Accessories Giveaway:

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the day when God called my tatay....

it was last FEB 9 around 12:30am when i got a call from my niece.... 

and it's all started there. she told me that they rush tatay into the hospital for breathing hard and some chest pain. i thought it is just normal and nothing serious, as tatay recently complaining about it. but she sounds so panic and crying while talking to me... and then i cried back and asked what is happening, she answers "tita, si lolo" and continue to cry. it was then i realized that tatay's condition is so serious for her to cry out loud. then she hanged up the phone and said she will call again and update me. me: crying while waiting for her call and woke up my daddy and tell him tatay's condition. and the 2nd call came, she cried more harder and ask me to go there to see tatay because he is on 50-50 status, and she said the doctors are starting to revive him. and then i put down the phone and all i feel is nothing but shaking and crying then i ask my husband to go to the hospital, i cried out loud and loud and loud... that lead my baby to wake up too. its takes us 30 minutes before i convinced her that we're going to see tatay and she cant go with us because its late already. and she allowed us to go...

while we're walking, im praying that i can still see him alive and can hug him and tell him how much i do love him.... it was exactly 2:30 in the morning when we get there... when i entered, i look for nanay and the rest of them... at first, i thought they already transferred in the private room coz tatay got okey and feel well... i said, thank God. but as i continue to walk, my brother inside the ER saw me and call me, and said "wala na si tatay"... the saddest sentence i heard in my whole life... and my world just break down.... when i finally saw him laying in the bed, i thought he just sleeping.... then i cried so much, crying as if it's the last time i would have a chance to cry. i just hug him tight, hoping he can still feel it. i hold his face and it is still warm... and i kissed him and hug him for the last time... my only regret is, only if go there early, i can stiil see him alive. the call of niece in my cellphone gives me a sign that its time and i dont know why, but i really feel its time. so i just pray to God, that i hope i can still see him alive and breathing...  but im too late... siguro sabi ni Lord, ang tagal mo kasi eh... ayoko talaga na sya pahirapan". it was then i realized, that God really dont want him to suffer no more. our travel from parañaque to muntinlupa will take long and will make my tatay more hard to fight. as if he is really waiting for me but God really want to get tatay already... and so the pain no more... imagine, it takes an hour and half and God took him away from us to guide him to heaven...

i know now, that God really loves our tatay... He dont allow him to suffer so much pain here on earth and so God decided to stop the pain and suffering of my tatay due of his health condition. this maybe the saddest part of our life most especially to our nanay... but knowing he is now in heaven with our Creator, it makes us ease the pain of our tatay's lose. we feel the love of God through our tatay... forever he will stay in our heart, in our mind. he maybe not around anymore, but we will forever love him... Thank You Lord for giving us such a wonderful tatay on earth. he may be not perfect father, but he is the best.... 

the day before he died, he wanted me and azle to see. but nanay just ignore it and tell tatay, that dont worry they are here on friday (our regular visit to tatay is tuesday and friday). it's because she didn't know that tatay will be gone... :( only if we could know.... actually daddy decide to visit him thursday instead of friday... kaya pala... :( but im still lucky to get to see him alive for the last time two days before he died... and azle get to bond with tatay that day, they had food trip together. they eat fudgee bar and drink pine apple juice. the last day i saw tatay, he is so sad, i saw a deeply sad on his face.  only because, that his last tuesday with us, with me, with azle... only if i know... :(

kaya pala ang saya saya mo nung 3rd birthday ni azle, kaya pala ang saya saya mo nung last Christmas, kaya pala pumasyal tayo sa luneta at MOA nung New Year kahit nahihirapan ka maglakad, kaya pala ang saya saya saya mo nung birthday mo. kaya pala... kasi last na pala yun.... last celebration mo na pala yun with us... :(

tatay, i dont know if you can see or even hear us there in heaven, but we want you to know that we love you so much and i'll be forever thankful for having you as my TATAY.... i love you so much and we'll see you in heaven....

for those of you who still have tatay or even nanay, dont get tired of saying them how much you love and appreciate them. tell "iloveyou" everyday so you wont have regret when the day comes that God will call them... me, i know i dont have regret on losing him, because i know i did love him so much... 

i love you so much TATAY.... till we meet again. :)